AJAX (excerpt)

Come, then look at me the indomitable. No one ever

has asked for part of my suffering. You the innocent,

conniving, desperate, insincere, had nothing but admiration

only beneficial to you, no love, only demanding admiration.

You even get angry and think I betray you when in my distress

I can’t help you. And truly I betrayed you since I have betrayed

myself. Here I am lying down on the floor while my enemies

laugh and ridicule me. They all lurked around the house last

night, they kept an eye on me gazing through the window

shutters, behind the curtains, through the keyholes, from

inside the closet. I heard the creaking of the floor, the scratches

on the wall. When I went out they hid behind the trees.

They lurked. The white moon, huge as if

made of calico, rose behind the mount Ide; white dew

covered my eyes, I forgot what it was, a white handkerchief,

like when, in Salamis, we played a blind man’s-buff when

you couldn’t tell who’s voice was the one calling you, as if

you were in a dark church with sweltering heat, and the tall,

pale icons were talking about you in a low tone voice among

themselves

a gigantic serpent, a lion with a thorn in its paw, a severed

head on a platter, two shadowy eyes, a huge single eye,

beards, blood dripping from the edge of a spear, smoke,

burnt laurel, the little bells. I decided to pull back.

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